forlornness

[oakfarm]

A short entry about the subject of hopelessness. I won't say anything smart, just that it’s hopeless. The most present things that could make me feel hopeless is of course that I lost my job and on a much bigger scale, covid-19. Here I can write that some MD - a psychiatric not an infection specialist - some day ago tweeted that it’s not that bad since the number of ICU-patients has been plateaued for five days. Yes, just five days, is that being too much of a “the glass is half full” guy? I think so, it’s too optimistic to see that as a positive trend. Then I could ask myself what’s realistic, not too optimistic, when it comes to work? The problem is that I know the answer to that. Everything I would like to do is too optimistic. It’s too late to have a career. So that’s hopeless too. It's hard to be optimistic.

Btw, this county is at the moment doing quite good. Zero covid-19 patients in hospital and zero death in covid since june. Almost like I'm starting to wonder if God likes us.